You said you were my friend
Always there until the end
But then you changed the rules
Lying, words of bitterness
Replaced promises of forever
Laughing behind my back
Because you changed the rules
So all alone I faced the world
Filled with loss, confusion and grief
Depression consumed my life
Sometimes it was hard to breathe
My heart shattered
My head a mess
My world broken
My life in distress
Where do I go now?
Should I even try?
Should I just give up?
What’s wrong with me?
Will the pain ever stop?
In a cold, dark room I lay
Time keeps moving but I stay here
Tears flow but wash nothing away
I’ve lost my old self
No more cackle to joke about
No more video diaries
No more marathon facetime calls
Now you do that with them
The words still ring in my head
It feels like yesterday
But it wasn’t.
How do I let go of that cold December day?
A new hand reaches out
Sunshine breaks through
Into the darkness
Turns out it wasn’t me
It was you.
New dreams
New choices
New me
Because you changed the rules.